Once more unto the breach!

So I have a quick update, Sunday was an interesting day for me. We had a birthday party for my BIL and his mom. The menu for the day was one of my old bane lasagna! It would be a lie if I told you I was fearless in the face of such a nemesis. I knew what had to be done, I knew how to stop the beast. I just prayed my strength would not waver against such a foe as this.

As soon as I received the news, I started to plan my battle strategies. I knew from past battles that this foe likes to assault on multiple fronts, hitting fast and hitting hard. It was time to bolster my defenses, my fist act was to check my anchors(about anchors ), I told Mrs. BBB about my apprehension on the matter. I told her how my first instinct was to retreat, but in her wisdom she steered me away from that idea. If you flee now, it will only come after you stronger next time! So on Thursday I began by researching my enemy, I found the caloric information and figured out the points. However, my foe was wise and had managed to hide the serving size information! I did not let that stop me, and simply tracked for 2 servings(14 points).

Second line of defense, I planned out a way to stop it from hitting me on a secondary front, hunger. I knew that if I started with both servings at once it would lure me in to its grasp. I did not know if there would be a salad, but my plan did depend on it. If the salad did not arrive, I would send out an escort to bring it! By bulking up on salad, it would leave less room for forces of evil food to get in, like building a moat that forces them across a congested draw bridge where my third defense was waiting for them!

Third line of defense was a powerful one, like artillery firing from behind the lines. This weapon has the power to stop the lasagna’s power before it even arrived! Water, pure, plain, simple water. I knew I had to get in a min. of three glasses with my meal, because it would help on multiple fronts. It would help stop the hunger, it would help with filling in the gap left by the salad, and it would flush out the sodium spies!

My fourth line of defense is similar to the first, I added a second anchor to my defenses. I made myself accountable to some more people, I expressed how I felt and my worries. I knew that they would be a great ally in the upcoming battle and I was proven correct. However there was one aspect that I could not ignore about lasagna, and one that is hard to combat.

Taste and smell, like two giants trolls that come crashing towards the gate. How do you defend against them? Unlike hunger, salad or water would not stop them. It would test every line of defense and hit hard. Even my anchors were strained with the wave of aggressiveness that was brought up. Smell always hits first, swift and strong, with no mercy. It has the power to trigger memories, feelings, and it sets the pace for taste to follow. When taste hits, it hits hard, harder than any other aspect. It knows how to hit those vulnerable spots, it sees the weakness in the lines. How do you combat an enemy like this?

The final line of defense, and the only hope you have against taste and smell, is a weapon like no other. It comes down to a intransigent will, you have to fight and not give in. You have to push back, you have to decide that this line and no further. You and only you can stop this assault. When you eat what you planned, you need to stop throw in the napkin and quit. It stops taste and smell in its tracks, because you are a wall of will, you will not waver. You WILL be victorious if you want to be! I am not saying this isn’t hard, it has to be the hardest thing I have ever done.

Food is an addiction, and unlike alcohol or drugs you HAVE to eat. You have to continue your exposure to your drug, and it will be a battle every day, every meal. How do we win? We win by slowly retraining our brains, reprogramming the way we think about food. Will you win every battle? Nope, in fact at first your likely to lose more than you win at first. Remember though, you didn’t get overweight in one meal or one meal. Every time you win you make your next win that much easier, you make your walls stronger! YOU ARE MORE POWERFUL THAN YOUR FOOD! I want you to look at your meal next time you’re struggling to stop, and laugh at it. Why laugh? Because, you know that it is losing the battle not you. You are in charge! No one can make you skinny, only you can, and I fully believe every one of us has the power to change. Remember, one meal at a time….

Grant me the wisdom to see my food for what it is,
Grant me the patience to look past my struggles,
Grant me the strength to beat my foe,
Grant me the love to know my weight does not define who I am.

In case you’re wondering how I did, I have to report that, it doesn’t really matter does it? If I did well, great, if I didn’t I learned a lesson. As always….

Keep rolling on,



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